Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Monday, April 27, 2009
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Friday, April 24, 2009
Thursday, April 23, 2009
On another note, the petals of this rose are just stunning!
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Monday, April 20, 2009
Sunday, April 19, 2009
I was half asleep the first part of class and ended up gluing my end pages in upside down, which was pretty funny. By the time I realized (after lunch) it was too late, so I just let the rest come together as it wanted. My book is pretty cool, it is an old Russian Language book, which I think is funny because I am known to speak with a Russian accent at times. The pages are a mix of ledger sheets, white paper, original pages from the Russian book, childrens dictionary pages from the non-PC 1950's and other odds and ends.
I see an new obsession my future!
Friday, April 17, 2009
Some of the items are very old and may be of some value, but not all the money in the world would ever get me to part with these things, they mean so much more to me than they could ever mean to someone off the street. I would like to think Mary would rather family hold on to these things than have them end up at some unknown person's home not knowing where they really came from you know? I am excited to get home tonight and make space for my precious items and at the same time I am dreading unwrapping the items because I know it will make me sad.
I finally got over being sad every time I passed my Grandma's mocassins on the wall in my bedroom.
It is all part of the process I guess.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Why does it take something as devastating as someone passing away to make me do a personal inventory of what I have done with my life, what I want to do with my life and what is getting in my way of getting things done? I get the whole "believe and achieve" concept but it is hard to get my mind around and really feel like I can move mountains so I am trying to reprogram myself in order to do the things I really want to do in life. I don't want to have any regrets at all when it is time for me to go.
My Aunt Mary was my biggest supporter when it came to my writing. I never shared too much of it with her, but she would always ask about my progress or what I was working on and also (a funny memory), she knew I am a horrible speller. When I was about 18-19 and dead set on being a writer some day, she sent me an electronic handheld speller the size of a mini calculator. I wasn't sure if I should have been offended or not, but when I spoke to her that Christmas I found out that it was really to urge me to keep writing and not to let the hang ups (like spelling) hold me back. I used that speller and my typewriter together all the time until the speller died and I moved out and got a computer with spellcheck. Aunt Mary was convinced she could tell when a writer used a word processor to write their books and I always wondered, how am I going to sneak that one by her if I ever get anything published?
Aunt Mary was the most compassionate person I know. She took care of a man named Preston for almost as long as I can remember and before that (I recently learned) she took care of a friend of hers during her final months before cancer took her life. Mary didn't worry about what was going to come next for people she was carrying for, she made each day with them as comfortable and as nice for them as she could and put her own needs aside. She was a lover of animals and always had a cat (her "familiar"). I remember Emily, her black cat, she was a permanent fixture with Aunt Mary for so long and we were all sad when she passed. Pita (another cat) died when we were in Connecticut one Thanksgiving. It was horrible, but I am glad we were there with Mary and she wasn't alone to bury Pita. Lydia had a short life, she was ill and as much as Mary tried to nurse her, her illness was stronger and took her too soon. Sasha (because she is sasha good cat) outlived Mary and now resides with my parents. Sasha was with Mary when she passed and I believe that Sasha is a little bit Mary now walking around my parents house. Last week when we first got there she was skittish but by our last night she let me hold her, cut her nails and then bathed me and Tim in our bed and slept next to my head the last night. I cried. I think it was sort of Mary saying good bye in a way. I know that might sound weird to people, but I think that in some way she is in the cat. My parents intend to keep her with them. At first they were not sure, but she is so good and sweet and such a tiny little lady that how can you say no? She has been through quite a lot these past couple weeks and she needs to stay with family. I think that is what Mary would want.
Mary loved to write letters! My love of thank you notes and checking in letters came from her. Mary wrote to my Dad when he served in Vietnam and that created a special bond between my Dad and her even though she was on this side of the globe fighting for the war to end. I will miss getting her letters and cards with her infamous signature of ML2 ("the Aunt").There is so much more I could write and share about Aunt Mary, but there is also a lot I would like to keep to myself and I am sure you understand. I am glad that the last time I spoke with Aunt Mary I told her I loved her and as always, we had an epic conversation - there is no other way with Mary.
Never pass up an opportunity to let people know how you feel, whether it is positive or negative. Give people a chance to make things right if they hurt you, by approaching them with nothing but love and forgiveness no matter what. As with Aunt Mary, things happen suddenly and you never know when someone you love will be taken from you without warning so make the best of every moment.
PS - had to get all of this out in writing, stream of conscious style, thanks for reading.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
I know some of you have emailed or commented about my recent photos, most of them were taken at the Heidelberg Project.
I will let this video tell the story...
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Monday, April 13, 2009
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Angela is a wonderful friend, excellent confidant, smart advice giver and great listener. She is a constant inspiration to me and I can't imagine my life without her. She is a Mom, wife, cook, and keeper of the farm (2 dogs and a cat). I think one of the best gifts my husband ever gave me was introducing me to his friend Angela. I am so blessed to have my very own Angel.
Angela, I love you! I hope B and Frankie plan a great day for you, you deserve it!
This photo is of the Catholic Church, Shrine of the Little Flower, it faces my home town. I never paid it much mind when I lived here, but it really is a thing of beauty. The photo doesn't really give an idea of the size, but this thing is HUGE!
Now, if I only had the software to get that darn power line out of the photo!
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Friday, April 10, 2009
Thursday, April 09, 2009
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
- Friend at work was in a serious car accident and still in ICU - BAD
- Sold Grateful Dead tickets since I will be out of town May 14 - GOOD
- Aunt Mary passed away - BAD
- Tim is coming with me to Michigan - GOOD
- USCIS (INS) fingerprinting updated for continuing adoption process - GOOD
- Horrible allergies and high pollen count - UGLY
- Jury duty notice came in the mail Saturday and my job doesn't pay for the time off - BAD
- Large pimple grew on my forehead - UGLY
- Got 3.5 cases of wine yesterday - GOOD, BAD and UGLY
- Was greeted at the door after work yesterday with a pile of cat barf - UGLY
- Lost my wallet - BAD
- Drove home in the rain to look for aforementioned wallet - BAD
- Found wallet - GOOD
- Free veggie soft taco for lunch - GOOD
- Forgot about scone for breakfast, so I can have it with my tea this afternoon - GOOD
- Fell off the diet wagon, but not too far off - UGLY
- My boss understands and is supportive at this time - GOOD
- I have not had time or the bandwidth to write about any of this in my journal - UGLY
- I got a package from Scotland today (x Ali) - GOOD
- In a matter of days I will be with my family - GOOD
I think that is it for now, looks like the good outweighs the bad, so this list helped me get some perspective although I never lost it totally - I always try to have the positive prevail over the negative.
Monday, April 06, 2009
Sunday, April 05, 2009
Saturday, April 04, 2009
Photo taken with my cell phone.
Friday, April 03, 2009
Thursday, April 02, 2009
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
You, black Audi A4, light brown hair, likes her coffee light in color.
Me, blue Jeep Liberty, brown hair, always wearing sunglasses no matter the weather and likes her coffee when she gets to work.
I am sorry that I gawk at you each and every day on the way over the Bay Bridge, but I need to come clean. It really has nothing to do with you, it is that travel coffee cup. I am a magpie by nature so when something this exquisite catches my eye, I must have it for my nest. You have to know that my commute isn't the same if I don't see your clear acrylic glittery coffee travel cup. That is how I know you like your coffee light, it actually appears that you are drinking a creamy cup of coffee filled with glitter, how fun would that be?
Anyway, I am sorry if this reads like a personal ad, really the only thing personal about it is me personally wanting to know where you got your fabulous travel mug!
See you where the rubber meets the road,